It's all my fault.

If i could just stop being so stupid, everything would be fine.
If i could have stopped myself in time and made sure that no one knew anything, it would have just been perfect. Why is it that i get affected so easily? I don't think i'm normal. Everytime i see something and i'm not happy, i get annoyed and moody, and i vent my anger on people who've done nothing wrong. I vent it on people who have been nice enough not to show me they're annoyed or disturbed. I'm really really sorry, thats the only thing i can say. There's nothing else i can do. It's not like life comes with a rewind button attached. It's unfair. If only i could learn to control myself better, and not let my emotions show so outwardly, then everything would be fine. It's true. There is no point in saying sorry anymore, cause it's been one time too many, anyone would have gotten annoyed. But thanks for hanging on for so long. I'm sure anyone else would have just lost it after the first few times. It's my fault that when i try to forget you, i end up trying to hate you in order to do that, and it shows, so obviously. I know life's been tough, and i've been a reason why it sucks so badly. I really don't know what else i can do.
Can you give me another chance?
Please.

And it feels like tonight.
I can't believe I'm broken inside.
Can't you see that there's nothing that I wanna do,
But try to make it up to you?
And it feels like tonight,
Tonight.