No, i'm not sad because of the comm interview or anything, so please dont jump to conclusions. I'll give you the reasons why im feeling horrible.
1) I have this really super annoying, drilling headache now and i dont know how to get rid of it.
2) I just realised that JCTs are less than 3 weeks away, and i haven't even finished one chapter of any subject.
3) I dropped my mac today! )':
4) In the afternoon, after PW, i went to meet my brother and mum to submit my NIMC application at the NAC office at the MICA building. And guess whaaaaat, accompanists are compulsory for the bloody final rounds and its so annoying because i dont want to play with an accompanist! What kind of bloody competition judges an individual player, by making them play with an accompanist huh?! It's not enough that they increased the bloody minimum amount of songs, they just HAVE to include this bloody rule.
5) I came home to practise veena, and i can't play the bloody thanam cause its so difficult. I always thought my biggest asset was my veena playing ability, and today i feel so demoralised cause i can't play it! Yes, go on and tell me it's difficult (it's the most difficult thing to play on the veena.), but a piece being difficult has never stopped me before. This thing just won't get into my head.
I need someone to talk to, like now. ):
God, save me, get me through this.
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