KACHING.

why am i blogging less than 1 hour after my previous post?
good question.

i have no idea, i'm freaking bored. RAHR.
It's okay, there's school tomorrow (yes, i'm actually rejoicing at the fact that there is school.) I'M BORED THAT I WANT TO GO TO TOYS'R'US, GET A TOY CASHIER COUNTER AND PLAY WITH MY DOGS, YES, BY PRETENDING TO SERVE THEM HOTDOGS.
i'm mad right?

There's no one in the crowd.

I'm dead bored at home. Other than the immense pile of revision and tutorials, there is no other form of life. The tv's getting boring, and the computer is worse. Ima getting a new com! I dunno if i should get a mac. Let's see how. I've been thinking really. 4 days of total cut-off from the life i got so familiarised with the past few months, i've taken the time to sit back and think. I guess there were so many things that were just simple mistakes that i should have never have made. Thinking over things now makes me feel really stupid, and small (not in the literal sense, you idiot.) anyway, yes, i've been regretting so many things that i've done, ponning lessons, unfinished tutorials, and the list carries on, not just school stuff, yes you should know what i'm talking about. Now, more than ever, i want to go back to 3 years ago, back in secondary school, where i had nothing much to worry about. I'm yearning for that life, but it's never going to come back. TA was a really bad desicion for me, why oh why? I wish i'd never signed that form.

PW sucks, like really. My group's at a loss of what to do cause we can't seem to get the Wii console. Does anyone have big enough heart to lend it to us? Pretty pretty please with sugar on the top?

I WANT TO BE A CHEF DAMMIT. ):
like really badly.

Even though i really love you,
i wanna smile cause i deserve to.
It'll all get better in time.

who am i kidding man?

RETAIL THERAPY.

I WANT I WANT.
I NEED TO GO SHOPPING. ):
LIKE DESPERATELY.
omg. i feel fucking poor now cause i have no money.
Come, you can spite me for sounding like a bitch now.

Still on concert high.

Am in school now, there was some cohort meeting this morning, so yes, NO SWIMMING. (:
Okay, erm. Oh yes, i was crazy and went to blogsearch terms like 'tjcsb', 'prelude 28', 'tjband' etc. and read alot of posts by band members/members of the audience about the concert, and im sooo happy that all of them (maybe except one.) had positive things to say about the concert. yay.

Sunday was 11th May, zomg. Same day, last year, Yeah, Gold with no regrets baby. (:

I'm so tired now, i feel like sleeping. But all the couches in the bandroom are occupied and if i have to, i'll have to sleep on the floor, which is like, no fun man. So yeah, i'm keeping myself awake by blogging. I'm seriously broke this month, i feel so poor. Yes, what am i going to do man? I dunno how im gonna pay Kwangyi back for the VJ concert, zomgz. Hahah.

Life's been good i guess. Just that, oops, i havent done my physics tutorial, Ima do now.

Be back soon.

I felt the magic, again.

TJCSB's prelude 28 was a blast! (:

Be very jealous, thank you very much. I felt the magic yet again.
It's 120am on Sunday morning, and you might be wondering why i'm posting this now. Well, i wanna get it all out while the feeling is still fresh, and everything keeps playing back when i close my eyes. The first half of the concert was excellent. When we started with Han's, i could literally feel my hair standing, and the entire hall was suddenly filled with this immense sense of grandeur uncomparable by anything. It all seemed so fast, and was all gone in a flash. Though there were hiccups here and there, it was an overall hit, and the audience were really supportive. Stageband was, omg, where do i even start? So many day&night's hard labour and pain finally paid off today. It ran super smoothly and the audience practically laughed at everything. I'm really very happy that my 3rd and last stageband ended with a bang. I'm really very proud of everyone of the J1/TAs, cause everyone had a really important part to play in the success of the stageband. Without everyone's shear dedication and hardwork, i don't think we could have pulled off the show so well. Thanks so much to all of them for making my last stageband a really memorable one. The magic that i felt after really owns that of Prelude 26/27. I guess it's true that from a batch of 4 people, to a batch of 40 odd people, there's so much difference. Tolerance is one thing i learnt over stageband. I guess everything can never happen by my own way all the time. I've got to learn to tolerate and listen to others, and also stageband has taught me to appreciate diversity, in the sense of thoughts and mindsets. Working with so many people, made me realise that not everyone thinks the same way, and not everyone will be happy with a certain desicion. But certain desicions have to be taken, while not favouring everyone, for the good of everyone, or something like that. Stageband has also helped me to make so many friends. The entire batch is love. (:

'Tis the last time we'll be playing with the J2s. Knowing them for slightly over a year, has really been special. And yes, i'd miss them. Especially Siewyuen, who craps so much with me during band, and Qinjie, for being a really great SL, and all the other clarinetists. I wish all of you all the best for everything that you wanna do in life man. I'm guilty cause i havent really been spending time with my section recently, but yes, i still do love all of you. (:

To think that this time, next year, i'd be playing in my last concert as a tjcsb main band member, it really pains me. But i've got one more year to treasure.

TJCSB is LOVE.

The Melancholy House of Usher

It's 740am on a Tuesday morning, and i'm sitting at home.
Why? Cause i didnt go for swimming, cause i wanted to finish my homework, call me a mugger, whatever. I was really cheered up by stageband yesterday, atleast the first part. Working with the girl gang is so much fun, it's like ANTM. (:
So yeah, I'm really at a loss of words now. Oh and btw, ponning swimming was actually my mum's idea. Cause last night, i came home at around 11, looking super dead. So my mum was like, 'go bathe and sleep, i'll wake you up early, like 430am tomorrow to do workz.' Then i was like, 'OH! Tomorrow's swimming.' She stares at me for awhile and then goes, 'Okay, i'll write you a letter.' HAHAH, so funny. Zomg, i hope no PE teacher reads this manz. (:
I know now, how hard is it to resist. Rachel was concentrating so hard on not doing it yesterday, and zomg is it hard! Hahah, she should know what i'm talking about. I'm feeling all drained now. I just finished analysing House of Usher, which is oh-so-disturbing okay, and also did my inequalities tutorial. I really dont feel like doing WEP for Physics, rahr. I should have dropped out of school and learnt cooking man.
RESIST MORE GV, RESIST. (:
Don't look at me like that. /:
Oh and shufen, yes i love you too. (:
ahahah, this means alot to me, especially right now.
You can call me a bitch, but do i look like i care?

I've been a really big bitch.

Reading so many different people's blogs made me realise today what a big bitch i am. I think i'm a really big reason why stageband is so f-ed up, and there's nothing i can do about it now. I'm sorry okay, i really don't know what else to say/do. I realised my mistake, bitching to people just makes everything worse, and yeah it's gratifying, but ultimately, it's made me the biggest bitch of them all. This should really stop right?
Ohmygod, gimme the strength.
Im not going to bitch.